{Kicking} excuses to the curb

Christina caught a nasty flu bug and since she has not been swimming the past two weeks, neither have I. Such a slacker I am! I was actually thinking of cancelling my gym membership since I was not using it like I should. I just was getting way too tired at the end of the night to gear up and go swimming at 8pm. After a day of picking up toys and cleaning, my back hurts and I feel like my hips are going to give out on me. And of course that lovely sciatic nerve shooting lightning blots down my leg adds to the fun. If you see me flinch or spaz while changing position or just walking... you know I have just been stuck my lightning. LOL

Then I had the lovely idea. I have been doing some babysitting for a girl in my ward with the idea that we would swap. Well, duh, it occurred to me that when I drop of Jaylin for preschool in the morning that I could have Tess watch Nolan during that time and I could swim. ( and skip the child care fee at the gym) I have energy at the first part of the day, and better yet, that is a perfect time for her to watch Nolan. Woo hoo!

Lesson learned: when you start to make excuses for not jumping in the pool or pounding the pavement... something has to change. And a little prayer helps to spark those answers that are easily right in front of you.

slowly but surely...

I can tell I am slowly loosing by the way my close fit but, I have yet to get a set routine in. I am cleaning a lot more house and I am a lot more busy. I have noticed more energy and that I am getting more things accomplished. It might help that I bruised my tail bone and it hurts real bad to sit!!!

I haven't seen a lot of you in a while. I know that some are just maintaining and some are just trying to survive life...and some are about to explode (one more month Sara) but I miss the ideas and just knowing that you are out there.

Know that you are helping me just by getting on here and venting life and talking about every day struggles... if you pregnant which 2 of you are please talk abut strength and weaknesses with that. I just need people out there!!!!

I hope you are all well out there!!

That which does not kill me...

There is a quote that I like; "That which does not kill me, will only make me stronger!" Well I have to tell you that today at work was straight from HELL!!!! The minute I got to my machine I got jumped on (and not by my supervisor) and the day went down hill from there. My CD player broke and I just felt like some one had pissed in my cheerios and I didn't appreciate it.

Especially because right now I am going out of my way and stepping up to try to make sure that both the cotton and the Silque lines get there work out. I am constantly being told that I am not fast enough and that they need more work out of me. I already run well over 100% and I don't know how much faster I can go. Not only does my shoulder stop me at times because of the Arthritis in it, but having had a Gastric Bypass and the diet that I am on makes it very difficult to have the energy that I need to push through the work days some times.

I don't feel very appreciated right now and it makes me upset; but I guess that there is nothing I can do about it. I just need to go to work every day and do the best that I can and remember that there is one who appreciates my hard work and that the way that other people think and feel about me doesn't matter.

So..."That which does not kill me, will only make me stronger!" is going to be my Mantra and maybe I will help me get through the rest of my week!

Thank you for letting me vent I fell a little better! Lots of Love

I have a GOAL!!

So my goal is to loose between 50 and 90 LBS by September. I plan to walk and work out at home...so I am going to need support from you all! The reason I am trying to loose it all is because I want to try and have one last baby before I am over 35. That is just a personal goal age!

I have to get down so...
#1 I need to be healthy
#2 if i loose weight I may not have a clotting issue
#3 I will have more energy when i am pregnant
#4 I need to be more comfortable in my own skin!
#5 if I am exercising now i should be able to keep it up after I get pregnant.
#6 I need to loose weight to have more energy with my kids now while they are young!

So Any support will be Appreciated!!!

I miss you guys out there...How all are you of you doing????