this is it

I always write that this is it. I am finally going to do it. But the truth is i never last a month. I need a fire under my bum! I have never been this big in my life. Kids, pulmonary embolisms, and the lack of being able to do anything thing through them has left me... HUGE!.

This is no way to live. I have now passed over the 400 lbs mark..and yes I did just write that for all to see. Until then My body didn't ache and hurt but now it does I hurt all the time. I can't catch Brandon when he is crazy and runs for the street. This is no way to live and I am not having the quality of life I should be...and my kids are not getting the best mom they could have...nor my husband the best wife.

The truth is I get tons of tips on what to do or how to live my life but the truth is nothing is going to work until I have that fire...a desire to live a heather better life. I have been looking at an old family friends blog about him making a goal to not eat better not to diet or anything...just to work out every day for 3 months to get it to become a habit. Something his body need and wants to do. He write little tidbits about thing he notices about his body along the way like how eating junk food a few hours before working out makes his work outs harder. He is learning his body...and the goal was just to work out.

I guess I need to take baby steps. Not let the Whole thing overwhelm me all at once. I have to listen to my body and learn when I am full what helps and hurts my body...I have been trying to eat smaller portions. I have been trying to add more veggies and fruits and I have cut down on the amount of sweet stuff I am taking in.

I found this website ( after watching the infomercial) sliminsix.com And noticed that it was a super inexpensive program and that its main goal was to loose fat...I purchased it (after 4 months of lulling it over in my mind). It should be here soon. I am actually looking forward to it. I have decided that there are now so many reasons to loose this weight and with all you out there cheering me on it can be done.

I know because I am bigger I need to start with a little higher calorie diet. I have a new app on my ipod called loose it that helps me track all that I put into my head and counts my calories for me...I can even enter things into the program as well if it can't find it. I will have my hubby take a picture of me every week to show Changes...Cuz I need to see it!

I am 35 and if I want to have some sort of chance at loosing it and keeping it off now is that time!

I will post a pic when I get the program...and then it is on!